I’ve finally gotten over my panic attacks but I still have this unbelievable fear of talking to people. It seriously makes me feel sick even thinking about it. I hate being so weird and not having friends. I hate that I pushed everyone away from my life.
I’m stuck here for one more year. I just want to have at least one girl friend to hang out with. Just one. I want someone to talk to and to go shopping and to go to the beach with and to just have them there. I hate being such a fucking loser.