thetunacorn:

I feel weird saying this and putting it out on the internet, but I had the most horrible feeling today.

So when I’m alone (like every other girl, I suppose) I put on my headphones and just dance and I pretend that I’m dancing with a friend and I pretend to laugh with my pretend friend and “pretend” a whole bunch of things.
When the song ended, there was this sudden uncomfortable silence. I stood in my room, alone in this silence for almost 5 minutes. It was the most upsetting feeling in the world. I don’t think I’ve ever felt that alone in my entire life. I felt like all the happiness was drained out of my body and I stood there just thinking about how all the things I “pretend” to have when I’m dancing alone in my room are just that…pretend. I feel like such a loser saying this, but I really had to get it off of my chest. Things really suck sometimes, but I’m probably just overanalyzing and over thinking everything. Oh well, it’s what I felt at the time, and it was not a very good experience.